I’m in Recovery, Why Can’t My Wife Just Move On?

Tribers,

Kathy wrote a great article, with some good imagery, to help explain what someone may be experiencing after a traumatic event, whether it be the attack on the World Trade Center or a breach of a marital agreement.  She wraps up the article with some thoughts and guidance as to how to help someone through the experience, setting the expectation that everyday will have different requirements.

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I’m in Recovery, Why Can’t My Wife Just Move On?

By Kathy Kinghorn, LCSW, CSAT-S

I am sure if you are over the age of 25 you will remember what you were doing when the World Trade Towers fell – a day our nation will never forget. We all watched in horror as the live video feed showed people running for their lives. Many of us sat frozen staring at the screen as images of people who had just barely escaped were shown on TV. I remember clearly thinking that it wasn’t real, there must be some other explanation that a terrorist attack. Because if it was real and true that terrorists could cause that level of destruction in New York, they could cause that level of destruction anywhere in America. It was a singular experience watching the events unfold on that infamous day in our history. Can you imagine if you were an employee in one of the towers; covered in ash and debris and yet fortunate enough to go home to your family? What might you have felt as you stood in the shower feeling the ash in your hair? As you thought of the day’s events, what might you be able to absorb and what might your brain classify as overload and shut down your system? Would you be able to speak? Would you be able to be silent?

 

In the days following the attack as you now began to try create new patterns in your life, what might your thoughts be when you heard that highly skilled excavators were jumping on the job and the debris would be gone in record time? Let’s say that news reports began to cover the lightning speed that the engineers were able to create new plans and re-build the structures. Would you find the news comforting? Would it help to know that experts knew how to guide the construction and that they were able to use newer, stronger materials that now made the towers nearly impenetrable?

 

Let’s say in just about a year’s time you receive a phone call from your employer. They are beyond excited. The office space is done and you can start moving your things in right away. They spend a great deal of time letting you know how happy they are with the new structures, how much they have enjoyed watching the process, how they wish you would have allowed yourself to show up on-site so that you could join in watching the progress. What might your thoughts be during a phone call like that? Would you gladly join in the excitement and express gratitude for all of their hard work? Maybe not.

 

You might feel nervous, apprehensive, and fearful hearing this information. You don’t want to dismiss the hard work but you find yourself unable to join in their excitement. Your employer picks up on your hesitation and can take the conversation in a couple of different directions to help get you excited about moving back in.

 

He could tell you about all of the bells and whistles that make the building safe now. The new giant force field that doesn’t even let planes get close, the fireproof walls, the new steel supports that don’t bend under pressure. He can say, “Trust me, it’s safe. Don’t be scared. We need you to start, everyone is depending on you getting back to work in the office.” You could try to explain that you appreciate everything that the employer has done, and it may look irrational but you just don’t feel safe. He may feel a bit frustrated and try another approach, “Why are you making such a big deal of this? I’m willing to go back in. It hurts to have you bring up the past when I have put every safety precaution into preventing it from happening again in our future. I really don’t know how long the company can wait for you to decide what you are doing.” Would any of those comments make you feel safer or make your feel like your employer is able to understand the experience from your perspective?

 

What if after you shared your feelings with your employer, he said, “Wow, I can see that you are still really scared. That moment in time was so traumatic everyone involved is having to learn how to deal with it differently. It does feel too soon for some, how can we as a company make this transition back easier for you? You matter to us, we want you to feel that your safety is our number one priority. Would it help to let you know the safety features that the new building has? Would it be better if we didn’t talk about the safety features just yet and we could just talk about how this year has been for you? Or is there something else that we could do right now that would help?” Again, how would those comments impact your feelings around safety or your feelings that your company did genuinely care about you?

 

I find that often times addicts try to explain to their spouse all of the new safety measures they are taking (12-step attendance, phoning a sponsor, meeting with a therapist, having a safety plan, etc). The addict knows that these steps are really helping them achieve a life of recovery, they feel better, they feel hopeful and they want to move forward with their new found freedom from their addiction. They want their spouse to be in the same mental state. The spouse hears these things and may even be able to see the same positive changes that the addict is reporting. She may even question why she doesn’t feel safe, when he seems to be doing so well.

 

Early in recovery, addicts don’t really comprehend fully what they are asking their spouse to do. The reality is they are asking their spouse to walk back in those towers and act like the view out the window never had a jet liner in it. The biggest gift an addict can give to his wife is to acknowledge her fear, validate that it would be scary to trust again and ask what he might do to help her feel safe. Some days sharing his recovery activities with her might help. Other days listening to her fears and being present may be what she needs. Still, other days arranging for a babysitter so she can attend a 12-step meeting might be best. It has been my experience that when a spouse truly knows that her safety is a priority for her husband, she will begin feeling safe for longer periods of time and eventually safe enough to share her thoughts and feelings without reserve. It is well worth waiting for.

 

About the author:

Kathy Kinghorn, is a Certified Sexual Addiction Therapist and Supervisor.  She specializes in working with individuals struggling with sexual addiction, intimacy disorders, betrayal trauma.  She has spoken nationally on the topic of sexual addiction to train therapists, educate the public and/or to be an advocate for this largely misunderstood population.  Because of a need for more trained therapists, she devotes a significant amount of her time to training therapists.  She believes there is a reason for hope, and that this battle can be won!

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